Monday, November 17, 2014

I love grocery shopping, brrrrr outside


I love grocery shopping, alone.  It is so much fun, I know that probably sounds crazy.  I visualize meals I am going to make while in the grocery store.  Usually they are not for me since I don't eat meat, but I know the family appreciates my extraordinary amount of time in the store.  I have always loved to cook but more importantly I LOVE TO EAT...  My kids always tell me what a great cook I am!!!! I picked up a bunch of baking supplies today. Baking is a stress reliever for me.  Could not find a turkey large enough, so I guess I will have to go back. Julia Child was such a smart lady, I love Julia Child. 


Does anybody else suffer from Raynauds Phenomenon? Weird that a medical disorder is called a phenomenon. It is a circulatory disorder that causes the nose, ears, fingers, and toes to lose circulation in the cold. Usually the cold turns them white, sort of like frostbite. As I was walking through the store looking for toe warmers, I found myself wondering why, I couldn't feel all my toes!!!! Ironic.  I have suffered my whole life from it, hence the hatred towards cold.  A comfortable temperature for me is 80 degrees and up.  I want to go running, but don't want to lose any body parts along the way. 



As I have mentioned a time or two, I suffer from major depressive disorder. I feel like I have control of it right now.  There have been times when all I thought about was dying. I had friends who didn't understand and would make hateful comments.  Many times I thought, "would you say these things to a person suffering from cancer," I did not ask to be depressed, it just happened.  Why do we have do much compassion when it is a famous person who has depression?  I was able to hide it for years, then my life fell apart piece by piece.  My father passed, I lost my job, my older two boys graduated and moved on, lost my home, and my fiancé at the time didn't want to deal with my illness.  I was completely devastated, when I thought I had hit rock bottom, boom another blow.  It has taken me a couple years to feel happiness again. So I don't take any of my "good" days for granted.  

Have you ever suffered from depression? Do you know someone who is?
Do you enjoy grocery shopping?
Is it cold where you are? 

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